2016 Reading List

Here are my choices for what I am planning on reading in 2016 (in no particular order):

  1. Going to Pieces Without Falling Apart, Mark Epstein (NF) – In Progress
  2. High Lonesome, Louis L’Amore (F) – In Progress
  3. Forgiveness: Finding Peace Through Letting Go, Adam Hamilton (NF)
  4. The Revenant, Michael Punke (F)
  5. When Breath Becomes Air, Paul Kalanithi (NF)
  6. See Me, Nicholas Sparks (F) – On Hold wait list
  7. Self and Soul: A Defense of Ideals, Mark Edmundson (NF)
  8. Ready Player One: A Novel, Ernest Cline (F)
  9. Righteous Indignation: Excuse Me While I Save the World, Andrew Breitbart (NF)
  10. Code of Conduct, Brad Thor (F)
  11. Zealot: The Life and Times of Jesus of Nazareth, Reza Aslan (NF)
  12. The 14th Colony, Steve Berry (F)
  13. The Professor in the Cage: Why Men Fight and Why We Like to Watch, Johnathan GottSchall
  14. The God’s Eye View, Barry Eisler (F)
  15. Mindfulness: An Eight-Week Plan for Finding Peace in a Frantic World, Mark Williams and Danny Penman

Edith Hamilton


When the world is storm-driven and the bad that happens and the worse that threatens are so urgent as to shut out everything else from view, then we need to know all the strong fortresses of the spirit which men have built through the ages. The eternal perspectives are being blotted out, and our judgement of immediate issues will go wrong unless we bring them back. – Edith Hamilton


Busy day today

All the grandparents came up for a birthday party for Katie. First thing this morning we noticed that we had a small roof leak in Peter’s bedroom due to an ice dam. Bob, dad, and I all got up on the roof and shoved off all the snow, uncovered a large ice dam right over where the leak is, and we managed to get down safely.

We had a nice party for Katie. Jen made dinner and cupcakes and ice cream. Katie had fun, but both her and Jen were not feeling 100%.

Ended the day with the AA Championship hockey game on TV. Edina vs Lakeville North.


Results Demand Action

You know what I’ve discovered? In order to make progress at anything, you actually have to take action. Wanting to do something, wanting to accomplish something, wanting to be better, all of the ambition in the word do you no good unless you take action. Radical I know.

1. In order for me to finish school I actually need to do the work and get it done. Aspiring to be a good student does not complete my papers for me.
2. To get in better shape, I have to get to the gym and work out. Wanting to be in better shape does nothing to get me closer to my goal.
3. Being healthier actually requires eating better food, not just thinking about eating better food. Reading about eating well does not improve the quality of the food I eat.

These are not difficult concepts and yet I struggle with accepting them as fact.

Results demand action.

Great results demand bold action.

Mediocrity demands nothing and gives nothing.

I don’t want to be mediocre anymore.

Kick in the Butt

Cold start to the day, -15F when I walked out the door at 6:20 this morning. Tired of the cold and snow – need some warm weather and some sun. Need some other stuff too – motivation, ambition. I need some drive.

I need a kick in the butt.

I need to turn over a new leaf and get back in the gym, running, and being active. Without a doubt, I’m getting fat again – I’ve told myself at least one thousand times that I would never go back to where I was and yet I find myself heading back down that same path. Eating crap, not moving, thinking about doing stuff but never actually doing it. I know what I need to do and I still struggle to get on the right path – excuses, lies, and laziness are keeping me from excelling in life and being the happy, healthy person I should be – and once was.

I’ve come to realize that I’ve let too many things go over the last couple of years – CrossFit, running, and other stuff – all set to the side and given up on – or at least paused. Not sure why. I still have interest in these things. I still listen to fitness podcasts, still pay attention to the CrossFit Games, still like the thought of running and exercising, I like to think I can still push myself as hard as I did when I was running marathons and 30 pounds lighter. I’m actually not sure why my health has dropped on my priority list.

I am busy, without a doubt, but no more so than when I was more active, in better shape physically and mentally, and overall happier. No busier than when I found it possible to roll out of bed at 4:30 am four or five days a week for CrossFit. No busier then when I would spend my early Sunday mornings on a 2 or 3 hour long run around the Woodbury trails preparing for a marathon. No busier then when I found it possible to run at lunch along the river on warm summer days. I’m no busier today then when I found time to write for http://www.completerunning.com, complete my school work, and still do great things at work. I have no more going on today than I did when I was writing on http://www.engelsrud.com regularly and finding enjoyment in putting words on paper (in a virtual sort of way) – sharing my ramblings with no one in particular but still finding it rewarding. No busier than when I would rather go run then sit on the couch. No busier.

And yet, I still can’t “find the time” to do these things I used to always have time to do.

The truth of the matter is, I do have time. I do have the means. I do have everything necessary to be successful in living an active and healthy lifestyle.

What I need to do now is go do it.

GORUCK Challenge, Accepted.

I’ve been looking for something to get me going again and fire me up a little bit.

I think I’ve found it.

I just signed up for the GORUCK Challenge – an 8 to 10 hour excursion (for lack of a better word) with a group of about 30 people and one former special forces military ass kicker leading the way.  We will start somewhere in Minneapolis on April 4th at 9:00 pm and run/walk/hike our way around the city to the tune of about 20 miles. Along the way we will do fun stuff like carry big logs, wade through muddy water, and do countless push-ups and the like.  Oh yeah, did I mention that we do all this while wearing a backpack (Ruck sack) with 6 BRICKS inside?

And yes, I paid to do this and it’s going to be AWESOME.


…but hopefully back on track.

Days 9, 10, 11, & 12 were a bust.  Short days at work did not allow me to get out to run at lunch and with Jen gone for a few days with David the weekend proved difficult as well.  While I stayed active (taking the stairs at work rather than the elevator, etc.), I don’t think I can honestly count these days as fulfilling the quest I set out for.  Kind of a bummer.

Day 13 – Monday – This was a day off of work for me and I had high hopes for a traditional workout while the kids were at school and day care.  However, a broken car derailed those  plans and I instead spent the entire day replacing the front right shock/strut on my 2000 Toyota Camry.  This proved to be quite a challenge and a ton of hard work so I think this day long exercise does count – I ended up with a sore back and sore legs. Plus I was able to fix my car!! Bonus – saved about $200 by doing it myself!

Day 14 – Tuesday – Back on track! Sunny and warmer today and I was able to get outside and run.  Only 3.18 miles on snow-packed, slushy, wet, and icy trails but it felt good.  Based on my heart rate, I’d say my fitness is improving a bit – while my pace is still slow my heart rate is no longer maxed out the entire time.  So, some improvement – I’ll take anything I can get.


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